My Testamony

I've been going to church ever since I was around seven and was surrounded by people that talked about how God is really awesome and powerful and I thought that they were just nuts and I just thought that He wasn't such a big deal or anything like that but it turned out that I was wrong.

Before I even became a Christian I thought why was I even here and what I was suppose to do in life so in the 4th and 5th grade I thought about killing myself because I wasn't good enough for anybody or wasn't good at anything which I never did attempt but thought about more though and going to parties about the age of 16 and to drink alchol to get people to like me and be my friend. I have also thought about getting a tattoo because I thought they were really cool and all but I decided not to cause its to painful and I can't take that much pain. I've also judged other people on how they act and look like even other Christians cause I just thought they were a bunch of stuck up people trying to tell people what to do or not to do and trying to be perfect in all that they do.

In the summer of 2001, it was the summer of me getting ready to go into the 6th grade and on June 3 I got saved then on Father's Day I got baptized which for me when I first became a Christian it was kinda scary because you hear about people getting killed for their faith which they still do that in other countries and so I talked very little about God and in 2002 was the same way but I did open up more though but in 2003 until now I'm now telling a lot of people about how God is awesome and more awesome stuff like that.

In 2003 I thought I was better than everybody else and better than basketball than some of my team mates which I'm not but I just a big head though but one night when I was about to go to bed and to pray God came to me and said your not better than anyone and nobody's better than you and I was like wow oh my gosh you may be right and of course He was right because He was God.

Well In 2004 part of January and part of February I lost my faith in Christ because I thought He wasn't doing anything in my life or even listening to me but it turned out that I wasn't listening to him. Then like one day after school I went up to Coach Wilson my coach and asked him what was the point in praying so he started talking to me for a little while but I was like ok cause part of it went out one ear and out the other. Well that same day we had a basketball game that was like second to last or whatever after it was over I like started crying because of what I was going through and some of the players asked me if I was ok and I was like I'm fine and didn't think I played very well which some said I did but that wasn't the reason I was crying but like a lil later Coach Wilson came in there to talk to me some more and I was like thinking do you have any idea of what I'm going through and you haven't been in my situation which he probably has cause like most Christians goes through some trials but anyways he was like when you get home and go to bed just pray to God and I was like ok well that night when I got home I got ready for bed and was going to pray but I just couldnt do it so I was like ok forget this I'm just gona give up and turn my back on Him. But on Feb 24- 25 my churh youth group and I went to San Antonio for a youth ralley called Aquire the fire well the first night when we got there the preacher was talking about God and doubting and stuff like that so when we went to praying I was like ok God if your hear and listening I wana know now cause if not then I'm just gona give you up and like a second or so that I said that He told me that I've always been here for you and has always been listening to you but your the one that turned away from me which theres a verse in the Bible where it says I will never leave or forsake you. And like that moment I was like crying for joy insted of sadness and that night I came back to Christ which was totally awesome.

Then about that summer in 2005 I went to church camp which was really awesome and realized what I wanted to do in my life. I met a lot of awesome new Christian friends and had a blast. But like on the second to the last day the preacher that was speaking which by the way he was awesome he was like asking us what we wanted to to or wanted to do as we get older and for me was becoming a youth minister but not really sure if that was right for me or not so as we like began to pray I was like ok God if this your will and want me to do it then i'm gona need help and guidance along the way or whatever you want me to do then I'd do it. But like whatever I do wheather its basketball or just school wise Im doing it for all the glory of God which 1 Corienthians 10:31 says and God has gaven me some awesome gifts and talents and I just thank Him for that and I now I've realized with God's help that I don't have to be cool and go out drinking and partying and putting down people just to get others to be my friend and that I'd just have to be myself wheather people like you or not and I've discovered that not everybodys going to like you in life and if they don't then thats fine. And if it wasn't for the Grace of God then I'd probably wouldn't even be here or wouldn't be the person I am today and I thank God everyday for my loved ones that supports me and loves me for me wheather other people don't and the trials that I go through and with some help from a few people I get closer to God.